of love, life and living it up

in my opinion there are way too many reality shows. and its not really reality. it's more of it being unscripted tv. i figure no one would really want to show who they really are for all to see. i know i wouldnt. ok, yeah people know me, and i have no problem with being who i am. but on the other hand, there are habits that i would rather keep unknown from the rest of the world. for example

1. i dont always necessarily close the door when i am going to the loo.

see what i mean? (i can almost imagine the looks of disgust ... hahaha) now picture that being common knowledge. even worse is everyone seeing ... oh well, you can just imagine. and that would become all the housmates bone of contention. yes i know its a bad habit. but that's why its a secret.

note: i only share this because most of you do not know me personally, but for those who do, if you qoute me i shall deny, deny, deny!

alright, where was i ? oh yeah. back to all my disgusting, too gross/wierd for public knowledge habits. maybe this is why reality tv shows are so much fun to watch. its common knowledge that when making a first impression we tend to go out of our way to seem nice and polite and likeable. but that doesn't last forever. eventually, you begin to crack and the ugly side of you shows up. thats what makes tv. watching an individual's image crumble right before your eyes is entertaining cos humans by nature are gossips. (for those of you who may hate this term, you may insert analytical, curious, bored or whatever helps you sleep at night) and i dont know about you, but i'm waay too complicated to be on a reality show. i'd be fodder for all analysts, hated by other roomates and would give message board geeks a field day. here are some of the reasons why:

1. as seen above
2. i'm pretty hard to get to know, especially in a new environment because im a bit standoffish so id be labelled mean and a snob
3. i like to sit around naked on the sofa as i watch tv having burping competitions with myself (i know i said in a previous post that that was just a figure of speech where i come from but out comes the truth. it happens.in fact its one of my favourite things to do as i watch tv)
4. i am the worst sleeper. wacha those images you see on tv of the woman looking an image of perfection as she slumbers looking adorable. the only thing we have in common would be sleeping in the buff. from what i have been told, i lay on my stomach with my legs and arms spread out like a frog in mid-leap, my eys half open and drooling. and i snore! not a pretty sight. most definately not for tv.
5. i throw the worlds silliest tantrums and have the worst mood swings. and its usually over the the small stuff like "who finished my milo?" but thats only when im having a bad day.
6. i am one big oxymoron. i hate seeing doors that are ajar but i go to the bathroom with the door open. i cant stand seeing a mess, but its tolerable when its mine. im a prude when it comes to PDA's (public displays of affection) but i have no problem with nudity ... but i dont think i would do that infront of other people. i could go on forever, but i think ill just make a post of it later on.

thats the list so far. and at the risk of alienating the friends i have or subjecting myself to further humiliation, even if it is anonymously i shall stop. but yeah. i reckon i wouldnt do pretty well in the reality tv show world. but then again, maybe im just what they need.

p.s - anyone ever watch the truman show starring jim carrey? menn, that movie made me paranoid - kept thinking that the cameras were watching every move i made and that there were everywhere and that all the habits i had hidden in any hope of having a significant other would be on tv for all to see. that was just a phase though, but i still do catch myself looking around suspiciously. you know, just in case.